“I Think We Should Just Be Friends.”

Thought Catalog

You are lying awake in bed, staring at the ceiling. It is half past seven on a Sunday evening but you don’t feel like doing anything. All you want to do is curl up into a ball and cry, but the tears don’t come. Your eyes are hot and itchy, but you tell yourself it’s hayfever and carry on staring at the ceiling, the cracks and the blu-tack pockmarks and the falling down posters which you know so well.

You keep thinking back to that time when you lay next to them, and they looked up at the same ceiling as you, and they made jokes about your decor, and you laughed. You can’t seem to shake it, how you felt lying next to them, the feel of skin against skin. You were both naked, but it didn’t seem to matter. You were unabashed and — you are pretty sure…

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Cloud Thoughts

On June 10th, 2012, I married my best friend.  It sounds so typical, but really, he is.  Nobody else knows me on a level like that.  He has seen me at my best and seen my ugliness right up in his face.  He has made me cry more tears of joy than tears of pain.  I am most vulnerable to him, but I trust him to care for my unpredictable heart.  Sharing this video about our wedding is not just about the big day itself, but the 1,503 that came before it to get there, and the uncountable things that God has done to get us ready.  Ready to not be husband and wife, but to begin to learn how to be a husband and a wife.

Anyone who has experienced being in love knows that it’s just beautiful.  Time slows down, minutes swell with meaning, yet you blink an…

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